It follows. even after you think you've been through the worst part. It's there and it won't leave, because it knows you can't let go. So many memories have made you who you are now, and you feel if you forget, you will forget who you are. It is important to know who I am, … Continue reading My mental breakdown
What many of you won't understand, is what exactly the Dear is. And I guess it's normal. It's not very common for a valley/ravine to carry such a name. But you see, in my perfect little world, it does! This is the place where a lot of my stories took place. It is the place … Continue reading The Dear – My Dear
The other day I got asked: "Who are you, Deer?" and I promised I would reply. I promised I would reply with a story, so here goes nothing! The Deer is not a someone, is not a something, is not a memory, is not a dream. The Deer is a feeling. That warm, familiar, sweet … Continue reading The Deer
"We write to taste life twice" Fleabag.
I can't fake friendship. I am friendly in my own way and I like interesting people. But people are tiring. In a group, it gets exhausting, especially if there are new additions and they're trying to make themselves acceptable. It all turns into a fucking joke, I get annoyed and then move on. There's a … Continue reading How to handle people
Today I thought, while at work, whilst sitting in the office waiting for the laptop to restart, what would be a great exercise towards my "concretemessathon". So yeah, I was bored, I felt like I was in a creative break and wanted to release my thoughts once again. I have lost things, just like any … Continue reading Lost property office
Today is the first "1st of March" I have had in 5 years. I have been away all this time. And when you're away, in another country, another climate, different cultures, by yourself, things change inside your brain. For instance, the smell of home is forgotten. It didn't smell of anything familiar in England. It … Continue reading I missed me so much
Ran away from your responsibilities for at least one day and never regretted a thing.Went to sleep in the open air after having possibly the best vegetarian meal not even knowing it was meat-free.Found a tree with a view, claim it yours, brought your friends and sat in it for ages.Been caught by the local … Continue reading You’re a concrete mess if you…
Ok, so you’re here at this very moment. Present time. What do you do next? ‘the fuck did I end up in this wind-up? Let’s tell the world then. Five years ago, I decided without thinking. It was because it felt right, it felt like love, and it felt like home. I went back to … Continue reading Nobody knows
Since I've been brought to this world, I have physically lived in a few places. I have learned that I can adapt anywhere and make every sort of environment around me a cosy place I can call my own. I have loved every one of those places didn't matter how far I was from my … Continue reading Home isn’t where Google says it is.